postering

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which never seems the most productive
or effectual
way to be using my time
i do it chiefly because if i didn't
i feel i wasn't doing enough
so i approach it with characteristic unpositivity
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and if in two hours
also rehearsing and eating an ice cream
i put up fifteen
then that is pretty good going

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i've been putting up posters since 1994
and i've got pretty fatalistic about it
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you have to do it but
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it doesn't really get you anywhere
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regina sask

regina
hot
morning mediua
radio
media launch
tv
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ok
i think
hard to tell
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quite liking regina
its on a grid but it feels friendly and
off the main drags
the streets are nice
its a small town and it feels it but yeah
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we'll see
but yeah
this might be good
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lovely friendly billet
jeff culbert and martin dockery will also be here in this house
leanne and nicole from caberlesque in previous tours are both here
leanne apparently very pregnant
sharon nowlan is on her way
there's that super-tall australian allan

and to stick out as tall on the fringe
where many folks are 6" 2'
you have to be very tall
taller than keir tall
like ...tall

plus we got a house in edmonton
priscilla's brother clinton took a look at one for us and said
take it
so we took it
so priscilla is right made up and i'm
trepidatious
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ly
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positive
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City of God

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Just watched city of god for the fifth time

Am amazed by how different it is each time

First time I saw it it seemed wildly frenetic

Deliriously fast paced

With the fastest turnover of characters ever

But every time its different

Slower, more episodic

This time it seemed so slow I wondered if it was a wholly different edit

Which I assume its not

So what’s changed

Me?

It?

Me

But
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bye to london
next stop regina
never been there
small fringe
all to play for

best headline

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new york daily post
after the Americans go out
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THIS SPORT IS STUPID ANYWAY
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that's the spirit
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as for the daily mail
hitler's favourite paper, lest we forget
if the few had defended as badly as England we'd all be speaking German now
which is just pathetic

and it has to be said, that
what was the worst thing that could happen in this world cup?
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limping into the last 16
to get thrashed by the germans
that is the worst thing that could happen
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and what happened
...?
...?

london
the end
done feebly
hard work
lost money
show possibly got worse
though it and i got tougher
some nice audience
but all in all not good
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did a fringe benefit which was great
me and rob in an hour show
though giving myself away for nothing when i've
effectively lost money
did feel overly generous of me
nice show and audience though
and it felt very easy to do
compared to the stress i put myself through
before and during the full hour fringe show
a breeze in fact
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next stop regina
a few days off to tighten the nuts and bolts
and conduct some light surgery
the show came out of Montreal in rocking shape and it
only requires extensive thought to
get it back there
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blimey

didn't see that coming

4-1
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england germany

in half an hour
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ullhhhh trepidacious morn
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horror

Horror

death

nightmare

torment

pain

agony

and terror

God that was awful, just terrible

A dark voice rose from within me

Gaga aghast and agog

And threatened to swallow me whole

A slathering blackness of a maw

Uhhhl

The show the show the hideous show

60 minutes

One horrible word after another

One horrible minute after another

Whatever persuaded me this was a good idea?

Whatever persuaded me I have any talent?

And this had any chance at all of being good?

And all those audiences and reviewers and friends

Who laughed and applauded and reviewed?

They were just having me on so the fall when it came would be

all the worse

More ghastly and hideous

And well

Last night was that fall

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Sometimes you know, I’m quite good at this

Honest

Hard though it might be to believe sometimes

Like last night

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Very hard

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And sometimes I’m good and the audience are bad

And sometimes I’m not very good but the audience are great [my first two shows here]

But last night?

I was bad and they were terrible

OMIGOD

Whatever persuaded me to come to Canada and do a show about a riot?

Ahhhhg

And I’m stuck with it the whole summer

It’s the end of my career

It’s the end of my sanity

It’s the end of my strength

Ahhhg

I shut my eyes and I think of rusty swords in my guts

I wonder about the thudding impact of a spear on the torso as it goes in

I think of black slathering swallowing maws

Ahhhg
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