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o my god
whatever i said about tiredness before...
forget it
this is terrible
the show is murdering me
all timing was different yesterday
cos i was so tired
after the dream of a show the night before
almost perfect except i'm so hot
and sweaty
and dripping
and red
and sweat spraying
and nose dripping
and unsanitary
and hideous
and i began to feel profoundly unwell five minutes before the end
where last night the journal were finally in and
blimey it was hard
maybe he liked it
we'll see
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but this is being tough
the flyering and performing are making me so tired i can't do much else
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but we watched peeping tom
what a killer movie
a mean pig of a film
but excellent

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