Well, as I’ve said
And I have to say
The writing’s tough
Particularly the writing
And one of the bollocks-ups in my whole time as a performance poet has been how I barely wrote for years
Because I was running shows
Frequently less
You either administrate
or you create
So I had to stop running shows in order to write them
Even though I was pretty good at running them
Most people who try are actually bad
Not afraid of hard work
…
And one of the bummers of writing is the amount of wasted work
Especially when you see how disorganized I am as a writer
Memory
I have pieces I’ve been writing for twenty years which are no nearer completion than they were ten years ago
…
would work on for years
without hope of their ever being published
so they would work and work on them for decades
purely for their own sense of art
painstakingly perfecting them
year after year after year
not in the belief anyone would ever see them
but purely to make them function perfectly as works of art
which is alot yeah?
...they gestate
...
at length
...
lines attract other lines and it all coalesces
...
…
And the piece below is a classic example
Editing and editing
Editing and editing
Editing and editing
Editing and editing
Editing and editing
Editing and editing
Editing and editing
Editing and editing
Editing and editing
though maybe I’m a bit old for such full-on-ness
but its alot of work to have put in for zero product
not to mention the flow
and as i know it does work, maybe its a good example of how a solid performance piece doesn't have to work on the page
i'd be surprised, seeing how its essentially impressionistic
and don't have to know
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The you you become
Yes, you’re going to spend a long time being
So it pays to becoming a you you like
And me? …I want my heart
To lend and not take
To river not lake
To give and not take
To river not lake
the ifs and buts
and wrongs and ruts
And ahhh its
My pleasure your pain
Your pleasure my pain
My pleasure your pain
Your pleasure my pain
Cos ahh, we are the dogs of liberty, dogs of liberty, dogs of liberty
We are the ghosts of liberty, ghosts of liberty, ghosts of liberty
And we are but rollingstock
only in us can they be borne
AND SAMUEL BECKETT HE WROTE
AND JAMES JOYCE HE WROTE
AND WHO’S MINDSET WOULD YOU PREFER?
THOSE WHO KNOW NO HISTORY ARE CONDEMNED TO REPEAT IT
THE MORE YOU KNOW
THE LESS YOU KNOW
SO THE TRICK IS
KNOWLEDGE AND LACK OF KNOWLEDGE
The tricky bit
for I believe FREEDOM IS THE LAND BETWEEN WHAT YOU KNOW
AND WHAT YOU DON’T KNOW
And I wonder if the freeing
So this is called
IF YOU’RE NOT GROWING YOU’RE SHRINKING
I was making myself feel queasy
but it ain’t that easy
and weave
a newness,
unsheddable
head
seeking to live and create and be
to not get dragged far out into the chaos
yet neither be beached immoveable
…
and pulled and pushed
and so retain the chance
the choice
o roll me in roll out
pull me in pull me out
no pretence at any pretence
come on now while we jest
me I sought I sought up I sought the rest
me i got tipped off
i sucked it up and I chewed it
i let the chaos overwhelm me
this was me running round
dispassionate at my own disaster
never
ever
in fragments
so shut me in shut me out
wear me in wear me out
the cars growl impersonal
the streetshow freakshow a sped up slideshow
the old skin shed and
dead
spluttering abob in the tunneled spaces
ricocheting blundering tripping slipping
with
running fast running ragged running slick running raw
running wild running on running true running more
the rhythm becoming an energy
the choosing becoming a cruising
a collision a decision
a sound a booming
the stretch becoming a reach,
the rolling risen pulse of cadence,
now falling further still,
now,
so
deal me in deal me out
see me in see me out
a pleasure in every sense
lets go see about this mess
the world hasn't even begun yet
you never can win
i got you ...
between the malignant and the benign
but, ooh, don’t you like the vibration
of being caught in the oscillation
between capture and liberation
so, twisted, hamfisted
count me in count me out
see me in see me out
born to be ripped off
and me i ripped the script off
a bowling down the lane ball
trenchlike streets of the mazelike city
of the pretty suburban pretty
with
running fast running ragged running slick running raw
running wild running on running true running more
the sound becoming an melody
the choice becoming a voice
an emotion a musing
a fusion a fission
the stretch becoming a reach,
the flame becoming a fire,
now falling,
and soon,
scaling higher
and I’ve some inner specifications to rearrange
yes I’ve some inner specifications to rearrange
the expansion of the possible
a growing sense of newness
unbegun
the racking up of good reasons why
and nothing beats a fail like a try
of intellectual rigour
sound of floors smashing
on rock
cos its a disaster we’re not moving faster
so find me in find me out
fit me in fit me out
no pretence at any pretence
come on now while we jest
born to be ripped off
come on now before you guess
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